Well, I’m sure I’m not the ONLY one out there whose thoughts are sufficiently fractured these days, eh? I mean….Jesus. What a week.
Over here in the Reseburg household we are hunkering down (the word “hunker” is having a moment right now). With Molly being high risk, we can’t take the chance of exposing her to anything. So, the husband and I…the three girls….the two dogs….a partridge in a pear tree….are all cohabitating 24/7 for better or for worse.
We are all finding our own ways to cope, at this point. Molly and Bridget have rediscovered their love of The Greatest Showman soundtrack. Betty is drawing away. Jon is pretty much single-handedly keeping his work afloat as their resident Zoom and Yuja expert. I am working Type A and my day job at the same time, editing my last wedding…wondering if wedding season will even HAPPEN this year (I am hopeful….I am).
We cancelled our upcoming Disney vacation. I’m likely going to cancel my much anticipated Canada vacation that I was going to take for my 40th birthday. I had been dreaming of that vacation since I was 8 years old. I finally scheduled it after hemming and hawing for years…..and this happens. Its like an Alanis Morrisette song.
But, I’ll get there. It just may not be when I expected to go.
I’m trying my hardest not to let social media and the news rile me up….but with little else to do….it’s getting to me. I admit it. I can’t watch the news anymore. It’s too upsetting. Social media isn’t far behind. I’ve always had a “love/hate” relationship with certain social media platforms. Being in business for myself in this day and age, I have to use it or lose it honestly. But, there seems to be an endless amount of idiocy and tone deafness going on as of late and I can literally feel my blood pressure rise whenever I log on. So….maybe unplugging for awhile wouldn’t be such a bad idea. Anyone else feeling that?
We’ve been playing some games with the girls (Pictionary namely….the husband wants to try Cannasta. Because we are pensioners now, apparently). I’ve been (unsuccessfully) trying to get a Twitter campaign started to get Disney to release the Hamilton Movie early.
Everyone tells me this is a time to slow down. To be intentional. To plan. To rest. But, with all the uncertainty out there? With everything bad amongst the little that is good, I’m struggling. I struggle with the fear of the irresponsible actions of others affecting the health of my vulnerable child. I struggle being in an industry that is not a necessity right now….but still needing to make a living, pay my bills, and support my family. I struggle knowing we are so fortunate in so many ways but there are so many out there who are not. Worrying about that keeps me up at night, because I feel helpless.
So if you’re struggling too? If you wake up feeling a mixture of fear, weariness, grief, and worry? You’re not alone in that. Not by a long shot. Everything is terrible right now. It’s okay to just say that and acknowledge it.
On the Type A front, I’m making plans to bounce up whenever this has passed and people start to need services again. I’ve kept the Spring Forward Sale up so if people WANT to reserve a 50% off session for portraits or seniors, they can. It’ll never expire. If you wish to do that, you can check out the options in the STORE. But know that I completely understand that the services provided by Type A are a luxury, not a necessity. Just know that Type A will be here when the smoke clears. This thing ain’t taking me down. Self-employed folks are a resilient bunch.
Enjoy some candids of the kiddos….looking all scrubby and waiting on a Zoom call from the grandparents.
We are in the midst of history making days here. Take pictures. Write it down.
